im sad... =~

haiz...i like bery long nv blog le...let mi tell u wat happened tis wk...sad...

e other dae...went 2 c e doc again...glucose level went up again...sad... =~ den...nafa...not good...haiz...dunno wat's wrong wif mi...i tis few daes...like bery not happy lor...den e other dae...hiband prac tt time...like gt tings happen...den i rush down c...at tt time was already like 5 plus le...haiz...i muz b mad or wat lor...den srband NDP prac...play under e sun...den last min muz choose another song...n i dunno which piece 2 choose...so took shrek dance party...but i conduct till bery lousy... =~ den e other nite discuss hiband com tings till so late...haiz...

on national dae morning...i so kan jiong lor...haiz...but i dunno i conduct well not...after tt rush down 2 hiband...wif e cert everyting...in fact i took a cab down...den gave mi speech...but i was like...crying all e while...haiz...

e other dae...classmate insulted srband...i was so pissed off...i scolded e inital of e "f" word...i didnt wan de...but i was really angry...he sae e band already bad enuff...he still sae e instructor...i was really pissed off...so...when i walked away....i broke down again...thru-out e whole lecture...i was tearing...haiz... =~

den 2dae leh...went back help band again...dotx...when helping them block e way tt time...gt one lady shout n scold mi lor...coz when she walk e 1st time...i told her cannot liao...den she wan walk 2nd time tt time...i sae cannot again...den she shout n scold mi...sad...really sad lor...till i broke down...den ms rama keep asking mi not 2 cry...but i really bery sad le...coz i saw alot of angry faces le...but its not tt i wan de lor...its e president of e band hu ask mi do it de...den she's like in front of e band toking 2 e instructors...haiz...i tink i can really call miself SERVANT OF BAND (SOB)...haiz...its really sad... =~

i tink tis wk is a bad week...

i really feel like crying non-stop...

coz...

im really...

stress out...

=~