how shld i be feeling now?

hi pple...

long time since i last updated...n so...i had a really wonderful party...but mi bdae was spent studying for e nafa tester course test...which was quite sad...but was really glad to receive a call frm chanya frm oversea...

aniways...jux gt back recently frm a holidae...really fun...port dickson...at there did alot of tinking...bout band n stuff...tinking of really letting go now...n guess its really time for e old one to let go...no strength liao...n really feel bery useless there liao...no motivation n all...really tired liao i guess...i guess a new horn now really dun excites mi as much...

i dunno y oso...but i really feel its time for some other batches to take over...i wonder izzit cox im too stressed...or i really settled my tots...of wanting to move ahead...honestly...i like band...but throughout tis 5yrs...wat has it really given mi?wat haf i really learnt?most imptly...wat haf i really done to help improve tis band...i take in all kinds of negative comments...ha...i even haf pple insulting mi upbringing in e band...but i heck about all tis stuff...cox i believe in wat im doing...

but recently...i feel tt my help n my need to b there is not really needed liao...everytime i go for band...i feel like im there doing nth...a waste of time...really saddens mi...i dun even noe wat's the pt of being there animore...i cant do much...tt's wat really saddens mi...

seriously...i tink its time to really move on...im like moving in circles all these years...i need to stop...