to stay or not to stay?

.*.to stay or not to stay?.*.

well...juz came back frm kl yesterdae...its not as great as i tot it would b...

-dae 1-
arrived in hihs...was early coz huan ying n mr ng asked mi to go earlier...so i was there...yea...help them a bit...den tok wif mr ng n shuan in e room...later go onto to e bus...den ride to kl start...*skip some parts* we arrived to e hotel...grand seaon hotel...not bad...i tink its e same hotel i stay b4...there was actually a shooting case on tt morning...haha...watever...we reached there in e evening...after tt...i gave out e keys...den gif one room wrongly...den tell rowen n jackson bout e swap...n guess wat...rowen scolded mi f*ck...well...fine...so pissed i told e instructors n e teacher-in-charge...in turn...they settle it 4 mi...tt nite...had meeting...den i do mi hw till 2am slp...

-dae 2-
wake up at 5plus...cant slp at all...den prepare...when 4 breakfast...met mr lester lim...sji instructor...den went down to e skool we gonna haf our exchange...on reaching...im really glad im frm s'pore n haf a music room...e skool there...haf band prac in open air...well...exchange started...hiband of coz played badly again as usual...den haf lunch...e kids there r so nice...they waited 4 our food to arrive b4 we eat...den met their alumni...wen long...he's w e band for 16 yrs already!oh my lor...he's so loyal...i dun tink i haf e patience 4 hiband so long...den haf diff lunch wif e kids...we had e skool food...e rice was super dry...i was stuffing miself to finish it...haf to take e rice wif 2 bottles of water...haha...den after tt...cont band again...den we leave...i dun wan tok bout dinner n rowen's flute ting...evening time...had a meeting wif e sec5 members...i didnt get a chance to tok wat i wan...coz shuan was doing all e toking...watever...den inspection...den shuan went to slp...do hw again...slpt at bout 1plus...

-dae 3-
tis is e most sucky dae...i dun wan tok bout it...shuan so called scolded mi...cried in e shopping mall...

-dae 4-
haiz...tis dae...e sec5 let mi down...i oso dun wan mention it animore...

-overview-
well...overall...e trip really sucks...im still upset wif it...esp wif e sec5...i saw them todae...but i didnt haf e mood to tok to them...coz im really upset n mad wif them...let's not tok bout it animore...i wan to get over it asap...met shuying n kitty 2dae...they cum mi house 2dae to study...they sae i changed alot since sec skool...mi temper is now keep all within miself n not shown to others...i agree...but i dun wan lose mi temper animore...

but i failed...i lost mi temper on e coach ride back to skool yesterdae...

bcoz of e sec5...

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let's not tok bout e trip animore...

it brings back sad memories...

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tinking of leaving hiband...tinking of leaving mi post as alumni exco...shld i?if i do...i feel tt i let down mr tan mr ng n mrs chua n all e teachers-in-charge...but if i dun...i feel tt i let miself down...

shld i stay or shld i leave?

i seriously dunno...

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