-controlling...-

-controlling...-

FINE!!!arrange...arrange all u wan...but at e end of e dae...muz u send it to someone else?hello...e work still belong to ME no matter how u change it!!!

now...im really pissed...

but i will control...

nth is going my way tis daes...

seriously tinking of leaving...let it b...i noe i will get scolding...but i had enuff...i cannot tolerate animore...ive controlled too much...for too long...im blowing up again...im going mad...going insane again...help...someone pls help...im nt e person i used to b again...i dunno wat's wrong wif mi again...all i do now...is nth...yes...i do study...but nth goes into my brain...all i wan to do now is...music...

listening to peterloo overture now...its featuring mi feeling in some parts...dark...sorrowful...doubtful...confused...everyting...

memories aside now...delication to who...yet to b known...hoping 4 new tots...tis time...for myself...ive learnt my lesson...i shld not b angry...its my fault aniway...for memories...

mrs tan's farewell...i dun tink im going ba...shld b going out to study...going to study wif kitty tomole...tis few daes...muz rush all my hw liao...haiz...i seem like ive been working thru-out e WHOLE hols...but...my work nv seem to b ending...tis seem like a never ending journey...

haiz...my life haf been a mistake...

had band prac 2dae...i cant play animore...i need more prac...seriously...MORE...my playing sux...okie...my playing sux all e while...

im angry...no matter how u apologise or wat-so-ever...it will nv change...one ting bad enuff liao...u did another...fine...oso...dun bother to apologise...i dun tink i will take it...

yesh...i might b hoping 4 new ideas to cum along...but to do it again...i dunno...okie...in fact...im a lousy composer too...i cant compose...so wat's e point?watever...i'll sae it again...

my life is a mistake...

im leading a miserable life again...onli music can kill e pain...i need my piano now...rite tis min...now...

so long...