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i tink it has been some time since i really threw mi temper like tt...in mi previous post...but i tink...e kids really calm mi down alot...

honestly....i enjoy working in a pri skool... =)

still feeling kind of moody n crappy...but i tink im getting back on track...i hope so...n offically out of tt band liao...its been 2 mths since i stopped returning...i tink i really enjoy doing stuff by miself...haHAHaa...

oh...recently i broke mi record...i slept till like almost 12nn...hahHAaa...i need to exercise some more...jia you!haix...i do miss them...but i haf to resist temptation...if u cant do someting well after a long time...it means its time to gif up n move on to someting else...

aniways...back on composing...but totally no idea...n im so loving mi bro's hope...jux tt e recording is horrible...e tims esp! haHHAaa...but still...its really nice... =) how i wish...haHAHaa...wanna b like him...but im like miles n miles away...haHAHaa...mayb i shld focus on playing good music...no matter how hard it is...i wanna pple to feel touched by my playing...

i dun like to express miself in words...but thru music...i wanna pple to understand e feeling of e composer...i dun wan ms tay to sae "when did beethoven bcum gay?" again...haHAHaa...funny arh...but she did sae tt to mi...

i tink i haf to keep tis in mind...if i really wanna to go tis line...mr tan sae to mi b4..."tis is ur passion, u shld work towards it...nt gif up." n he told mi b4 tt..."tis will b ur line"...i may haf given up on band...but im nt going to gif up on music...e journey will b tough...but i will withstand it...mrs lim sae to mi..."if u really like music, u shld work on it...forget bout JC..." mrs goon sae to another teacher infront of mi..."tis gal is really good in music..." mr lum sae "work on wat u want..." mrs sim sae..."its good to study and learn wat you wan..." so did many many more pple...

there r so many pple who haf faith in me...so wat if i lost e trust of one person...i shldnt jux gif up music like tt...even if i wanna gif up e band...i mux still haf faith in music...n mi piano...its like almost 14-15yrs since i learnt e piano...to gif up like tt...is like i wasted most of mi life...

its okie nt to b good...but its nt ok if e effort is not put in...i may nt b like some other musician, but i am who i am...watashi wa dare desu ka!(thanks mabel~) i wanna do mi ultra best...mux haf e discipline to sit at e piano for at least 4hrs, 5hrs, 10hrs if i haf to...haHAHaa..a bit extreme...okie...4-5hrs...

even if i lost faith in miself...i mux haf faith in music...after so many yrs...i preserved...i believe i can do it again...i went thru so much...i cannot just gif up like tt...cox of some dumb band...n e lost of faith n trust frm others...i mux build it up again...

i can do it...n i will n must do it...

cox i really like music alot... =)

tis will nt b possible, but i will dream of peabody... =)

a dream...will bring u further to where u wan...
a dream...no matter how big assure u tt u r still living n alive...
a dream...will gif u e strength n motivation to do better...

watever e case...i cannot gif up...i must nt gif up...

i use to sae tis b4...hiband is mi soul, srband is mi life.

but now...i lost both mi soul and life...

so...to regain mi life n soul...

music is my life n soul...