she mux smile again

_she mux smile again_

i cannot b too stress...e stress is back again...so are e problems...i mux b happy...i mux b happy...i mux b happy...

i mux find e smile again...

i hate my life...most imptly...

i hate myself...

e decision is made...im going to leave band liao...till assessment dae...i dun tink i wanna go back...beside tis fridae to get my foto...or else...i seriously dun feel like going back liao...nt even for assessment...im tired...i oso wish they can get gd results...but i jux dun wan them to tink tt e result is e most impt ting...i wanna them enjoy...i wanna them to try their best...put in their best effort...watever e results may b den...they noe they haf put in their bery best...they haf nth to b sad of...they will not need to shed a tear...i hate to see pple cry...but y am i always crying miself?tupid tears...tupid memories...

its been a habit now to always go back...yea...so wat if im e onli person who is always back tt often?who cares...no one...sometimes...i jux feel tt...whoever is up there looking upon us is giving mi too many challenges...i dun wan hurt mi friend animore...but ended up...im feel like im always hurt most...i regretted once...i tink tis will b e 2nd time again...im going to gif up hiband again for e same tupid old reason...gracia...u r such a assho*e...

till AGM...till AGM...till AGM...